When you haven't slept an entire night through in 7 years.
When he runs across the street, opens a neighbor's door and lets out their dogs.
When two gallons of milk end up in the hot tub.
When you feel like autism is overwhelming and you never get a break, you have a wonderful moment with a special child who makes it all ok.
When he says "pizza" at school but refuses at home.
When teacher insists he write his first AND last name, but you have never seen him do it.
When you discover important papers cut into shreds.
When being the mom is the hardest thing in the world, your innocent child draws you a picture of a crown and tapes it to your forehead and you remember how often he makes you laugh.
When you have to pull your kid off the bus driver.
When poop becomes a fun toy and your carpet cleaner is dead.
When you have bruises and bite marks that hurt and make the other shoppers stare.
When you feel sore and exhausted and you just want to cry, that is just when your son takes your hand, kisses your arm and pats your tummy gently and you know he is loving you in his own way.