In regard to my last post- Thank you for all the kind things you said. And thank you for loving me even when I am grumpy and impulsive.
I'm feeling better tonight. That is one blessing in my life- although I have struggled with depression for many years, I can always count on it to not last very long. Someone once told me I was resilliant. I am very grateful to Heavenly Father for giving me that quality.
I have discovered in the last few days that my blog has a few new readers. It makes me a little paranoid about what I have written, but challenges me to continue. One request: comments, please. Anyone can add their comment, it's not hard.
CJ spent the last 4 days repairing damaged power lines. We had a big storm last week here in the Northwest. People were without power for days, and some still are. So CJ and his coworkers have been working nonstop, a few nights without even a break for sleep, to get the electricty back on. I am so proud of how hard he works and supports our family.
When CJ and I met we were both young, rebellious teenagers. We partied and had lots of fun, and we didn't worry much about the future. Then suddenly we were confronted with it, and it forced us to rethink our lives. We decided to get married and begin a family. It was a shotgun wedding. It was quick and small, but turned out to be the best thing for us both. We began to get serious about our lives. We were only 20, and the reality of being parents settled us down. We were thrilled when TJ was born, and MJ and JJ quickly followed.
Several years passed and we grew close in our love, but something was missing. I grew up a member of the LDS church, believing it with my whole heart- even when I was not living it. But it had been years since I had been an active member. This caused a lot of guilt in my life. I wanted to raise my precious children with the Gospel. CJ had never attended any church. He didn't quite understand my need to teach it to our children and my desire to start living a more spiritual life.
Long story short: after 7 years of marriage, CJ decided to become a mormon. The day he was baptised was an awesome, miraculous day. He entered the water with great faith, and has grown in the Gospel everyday since. His conversion has blessed our lives over the past four years in ways we would never have guessed. I am so grateful that he wanted to learn, was willing to speak with many sets of missionaries those first seven years, and had a heart that was open to the Spirit.
He is a wonderful man. He is generous and caring, affectionate and hard working, strong and loyal. I will forever be grateful that we found each other. We have grown and changed together, and we love each other with all our hearts. We are sealed together for eternity, and I wouldn't have it any other way.
Catch me if you can-